Unexpected Turns

Spiritual Growth

The spiritual goals I had set out for myself at the beginning of the year were really simple, almost… trivial goals. In comparison, the year the Lord had planned for me was much greater. You might remember them from my initial post on the year and the goals I had. The aim was to be more in tune with the Lord, more in tune with my relationship with the Lord and the purpose for which Jesus created me.

The year the Lord had planned for me was much greater

than anything I could ever have imagined. If you ask me, setting aside every agenda I ever had as far as growing spiritually and focusing my life on the Lord and all He wants from me was the best thing I could ever have done.  Not entirely sure why I’m saying that as though it was something that would surprise myself or you? I guess you could say that is almost what I expected, just on a much larger, greater scale.

The Lord spoke to me and reminded me of how He has personally touched me at times when I went to ladies meetings and no one physically came to pray for me but the Lord personally ministered to me. Then a few hours later my husband, God bless his soul, came and said to me you need to have a ladies tea. I told him what had gone through my mind earlier that day and realised it was the Lord speaking to us.

Great personal loss in our community

In our immediate community we had suddenly experienced a great deal of loss. Many parents and children had been tragically lost within the space of approximately 18 months and our community was left reeling. Parents and children alike were feeling insecure, unsure and the minute anyone became ill or admitted to hospital there was an almost unspoken panic.

Multiple tragedies

In this tragic time, a parent lost his life and I was personally acquainted with his wife. After this tragedy I was privileged to be on the team hosting a ladies tea in the community where we were able to minister to the ladies hearts concerning loss.

This is one of the most amazing privileges and most humbling experiences of my life. I am awe stricken when I think about the way this whole picture played out. From conception to realisation it took 3 weeks to put this tea together in a place, where, if it had not been the Lord’s doing or timing, we would not have even been able to see the people in charge of the community within that time frame, let alone arrange and accomplish all of this in His time.

All the glory and honour to God Almighty who is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than we can ever ask or imagine!

I have the privilege of praying with my friend who is a phenomenal prayer warrior with the most awesome authority given to her by God  and together we have prayed our community through this time of grieving and loss, we have had revelations of what to pray for and who, through the Lord’s leading and timing of everyday events making it clear to us what all the different issues are in our community to intercede for.

The Next 6 months

Promise of the next 6 months is also nothing short of amazing. I will keep updating here, but I will not go into detail as yet in case of any undoing of our plans. The Lord knows them and has them in His hands.

What’s In a day?

You start with a plan,

maybe not perfect, but hey, it’s a plan. It’s somewhere to start and gives you a direction in which you are heading. But does the perfect day actually exist?

The last 2 days have been so off the charts I thought how could I actually think I can plan what’s in a day? I start out with a perfect picture of how I’m going to drop off the kids, never works out that way only very few days I don’t loose my cool somehow. I told my daughter at least 3 times today to bring or pack or don’t forget the hockey bag… get to school unpack bags.. not there, no hockey bag. Need I say more? I said well short of carrying it out for you, there’s not much more that I can do to help you. Needless to say, there was some conflict talk from my daughter’s side.

I felt really awful because today, as well as that, today was the second of our coldest days we’ve had so far this year. In having to get out the house and drive to school and my daughter, who never moans, is always happy and content and just a pleasure to be with and around as a person any time of the day and night, she, starts to moan and complain and doesn’t find a way to console herself while I’m trying to drive and put up with the everyday chatterbox my boy is, the early morning traffic and we are late for school because of the cold everyone was slow and tired and late to wake up. I became irritated and impatient with my daughter because nothing was consoling her, she kept saying almost crying, she’s cold and I’m more interested in getting them to school on time.

Sad to say, only when it was too late and they were already at school, I stopped to think. When I really got to thinking, I realised how wrong I was. Here’s a little lady who never moans or complains who is always content and easy to please and she’s having a bad day. Instead of getting behind her and lovingly encouraging her I became frustrated and impatient. You know, we don’t know how much time we have with our little angels, let’s worry less about time and what we will look like in front of others and more about the importance of our relationships with our closest and dearest.

I think this afternoon when I see her my conversation will be something along these lines.  My little daughter, I was wrong and I’m sorry for my impatience. Please forgive me for the hurt that I could have caused you and that I could have given you encouragement when all I did was be impatient. I love you more than words can say! Does the perfect day actually exist? It absolutely could if I am more patient, spend more time in submission to the Lord, listening to how Jesus says I should treat, speak to, interact with and love my wonderful family, not the way today worked out.

Please pray for me that I will live this way daily.

Does the perfect day actually exist?

In my opinion, part and parcel of the perfect day is allowing space for our loved ones to be themselves and assist and comfort them when necessary, allowing them to be human beings with needs and requirements of their own. The perfect day is one that turns out with relationships and hearts intact over and above being on time and looking good.

Purpose for my kids

Purpose for my kids

Becoming a parent was one of the most daunting things that I have ever experienced in my life! Would I be the right person to help figure out the purpose for my kids; and each uniquely?  I was so afraid that I would hurt them and end up wrecking their lives completely, how would I avoid that and would they survive being parented by someone like me, a severely fallen, fiery, broken human being?

Purpose for each individual

We all know that each individuals purpose is so completely unique but what I have recently discovered is that we tap into it in the same way.

Our very ingenious Creator, God Almighty, has given us each an identity that can most beneficially be discovered when we draw near to Him. Spending quiet, alone, reflective time with Him and He develops us so preciously!

Protecting our purpose

How do we teach our children to do this, I am still trying to figure this out. If you have any fantastic plans in this regard, I would love to hear them.

We have daily devotionals where we discuss what we read in the bible or a relevant book for the day or season we are in. Then we pray… nothing spectacular. The one thing we rely on completely is our comforter, our helper, our very present help in time of need, the Holy Spirit, to lead us into praying for our children and leading us in guiding them daily. The other very amazing gift we have today which wasn’t always available are the books people are writing. These authors are making their personal experiential knowledge freely available for us to tap into (how awesome!). People who have had generations of parents, grandparents and mentors praying for them who make this invaluable knowledge available, such as Mark Batterson, in his must read, Praying Circles around your Children, have had a tremendous impact on the way I see parenting.

It’s out of my hands

It’s not even slightly up to me. It completely rests on the plans and purposes God has set out for them and my responsibility to pray for them. But the Holy Spirit does the work; there in lies my security. I can trust God to work out His plans while I obey His manuscript on how to teach and lead by example.

Let’s keep praying; the only way to stand in this world is keep kneeling.

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Miracles have happened to me

Miracles

I want to take the time to tell you about a few miracles I have personally experienced myself. This is the first one.

Birth, Miracle I personally experienced

When I was born I was 3 months premature, this age of birth most often results in the babies lungs being under developed. Now beginning with my lungs being under developed, I was 3 months old when I contracted pneumonia too. This with the under developed lungs was a disastrous combination to happen, I could have died.

My mom had 2 other sick, very sick people at home at the time. She was really trying to cope with all these things going on when she thought I was getting better, rather than worse, and that’s why I had stopped coughing.

My pastor on his way past our house felt the Lord say, just stop in here something’s not right. He came in and picked me up. He said I was cold and blue. In Zimbabwe in the middle of summer, it’s almost impossible for a body to be cold. As temperatures soar to 40+degrees celsius.

My pastor, a very down to earth lovely man. He really loved the Lord and worked his whole life for His people(God’s). Took me in his hands, lifted me up to the Lord and prayed. He said it was a miracle and I started breathing and came back to full health.

Life-long closeness

Naturally he and I enjoyed a life-long closeness not really understood by most. In fact when I was a teenager even I didn’t understand it. Our family had moved away from that town to live hundreds of kilometers away. I hadn’t seen him in many years but my parents would always tell me about him. How he was and how his family was. I never really could understand that. He would always tell me about the miracle of my being healed.

Only when I saw him face to face again and he recounted that story for me himself that I remembered why we were so close and we enjoyed each other so much.

Help

I hope this helps someone out there, if you have your own stories of miracles it would be lovely if you shared them with me and let me know if I can share them to encourage others, much love!

If you feel, as I often did when I was struggling with life itself, that’s great for you but how would that affect my life. There are few to no miracles I have personally experienced. Believe me God has them all in-store for everyone. Look for Him. Call to Him, and He will answer you. He promised in His word.  Please contact a local bible believing God fearing church. They will be more than willing to help you find His love and acceptance. If they make you feel at all unwelcome, unloved or unaccepted, they are not who they say they are, try another church. We are all human, many people make mistakes in there efforts. Please try another church and pray ask God to show you the right place and time. He will, as He did for me.

Other Miracles I have personally experienced

I think I will weekly update this list. There have been many miracles at various different stages of my life. I will list some and come back to this list and write the details as necessary.

  • My hips were healed.
  • My back was healed at church one day.
  • 2010 car accident.
  • The miracle of my daughters birth.

Purpose came to me!

Mayhem and Chaos

Mayhem and chaos reigned in my heart and mind until I could take it no longer, I needed a solution. I craved purpose from my mayhem.

I decided that I have tried literally everything to have a fun-filled enjoyable life. None of it worked, I remained hurting and lost.

Nothing could truly fill the chasm I had in my heart. I was broken on the inside and everything hurt. Running from the pain was all I could do to keep myself from dealing with it. Like the prodigal son, I would do all I could to have fun, there was no limit. I eventually found myself at the end of my road . Every bridge I had known was burnt. Following every avenue I had lived every option out. I was trying to find if there was a life better than the Christian life my parents had taught me. Thoughts of there must be some kind of happiness in the world went through my mind and went looking for it everywhere!

Surprised, I arrived back home with my parents. I found all the peace, love and tranquility I had really wanted was what the people in their church had.

Purpose from my Mayhem

My parents are not perfect, none of us are. But they led the way for me to find Jesus Christ for myself. It wasn’t at that time. It still took me many years to really choose Him and go to church. That was the beginning of my desire to find Him.

I had grown up in church with parents who loved the Lord and showed me His ways the best they could.

The Change Came

My life changed entirely the day I decided to take the bible seriously and allow Jesus Christ to be the Lord and Saviour of my life.

Even then I didn’t believe in making deals with the Lord, I thought it dangerous at best. That being said, I had seen a sign for a church on the way to work everyday, and as I later told the pastor that sign called my name for many months, until late one Saturday night I said: ‘Lord, if you want me to go to that church in the morning then you wake me up in time to get ready.’

True as bob the next morning at 06:30 I couldn’t sleep anymore, there I lay thinking, is it me or did You wake me up to go? I got up, went and had a ball, I never looked back. Those people took me in as if I was one of their own. They knew I was broken. Definitely I knew I was in no great shape, but man they helped me walk that walk! I am so thankful to God everyday for the way He lead me to their building and closer to Him. I had some Holy Spirit encounters there with Him that I’ve never had again, but I am trusting for more, always, everyday trusting for more of Him and His ever-lasting peace that surpasses all understanding.

How

If you want that relationship with God that brings you peace with Him, peace, yourself the things you’ve done and the people around you no matter how impossible it seems. I have had to forgive my parents and many relatives, I have had to ask for much forgiveness. In my brokenness I have hurt many people, but with God all things are possible. Back to my point, if you would like peace to reign in your life, please read this prayer, (finished reading it already?) don’t leave it there. Go to a local church or trusted friend. Tell them of your commitment to have a relationship with Jesus Christ and ask for a bible to read on your own. Read it daily, pray daily for a closer relationship with Him, He will lead you and guide you, trust Him. You will find, as did I, Purpose from my Mayham came when I allowed Him, the Lord Jesus Christ to be the master of my life, sounds hard, it’s so simple.