Good Morning, 2020!!

1 January, 2020

This morning while looking out at the sea, I saw one of my favourite sights. I love watching these sunrays, when the sky is filled with clouds and suddenly you see this ray of sun beaming through directly targetting a single area.

I saw, far out over the sea, a beautiful narrow sunray bursting through the clouds, against all the odds this tiny piece of sun was making itself known. Directly in the middle there was a little cloud, perfectly tightly formed and resting in the middle of the sunbeam.

As I watched I felt like the Lord saying to me, “That is how you are to me, perfectly kept in the middle of my grace, unless you disobey, then you have chosen to step out of my grace and no longer rest in the middle of my favour and receive the consequence of your disobedience.”

Well, then the cloud moved out of the line of the sunbeam and I couldn’t see it and carried on walking around, but, I came back, curious as to where it is now and does it come back into the sunray. (Small things amuse small minds, I know, bear with me).

To my surprise the cloud had not only moved back, it had grown and was in a greater ray of sun than it was before. The Lord said to me, “You see, sometimes my hiding you has nothing to do with consequences either, there are times I hide you for your own good, to grow you, to enlarge your area of influence and make your foundation stronger. Don’t always consider what you’ve done wrong when you are feeling hidden or in a quiet space in time. Spend time with me and ask, what is the reason You, God, and I are in this season, don’t always assume the quiet times are disciplining, the majority of the time they are for growth and studying.”

What can I do in response?

1-Thank God for the seasons in life. Seasons denote change, growth and spiritual self-awareness, seeing ourselves as God sees us.

2-Ask God, what season do You see me in at the moment and what is my best response to this season?

3-Spend time with God daily, this way you will grow through any season quicker than you normally would and He can lead, heal and guide you to your next and you will know you are on the right track.

4-Get a spiritual mentor, that way you’re not left floundering around through one book after another with no progress. They should help keep you grounded, they should help keep you moving forward and always bring you back to relying on Jesus, never themselves.

Have a blessed 2020!

Your Next??

What have you had to let go of, to move into your new season?

I felt God ask me this morning, what if you would let go of the season that’s past and allow me to create and restructure the seasons to come?

Steven had to see and look past the natural, where he was being stoned to death to see into the  eternity, God had waiting for him, to be able, in that moment of agony, torture, pain and death to forgive, the people who were killing him, literally, as he did so God put him to sleep so that he no longer felt this earthly pain, torment, agony and never lived the trauma his aggressors were hoping to inflict on him.

You see, I, like most of us, have very good reason to hang onto and rally around the rights that I lost, the future I should’ve or could’ve had, had things not been stolen from me.

When God is the Master planner of our lives (Ordering our Mayhem)

But today, in the heavenlies I feel God asking me, what if you lay that down and allow me to pick up the pieces and show you how divine reconstruction works? How, when I say, “you are the clay,” you hand me all those losses of rights and denials of potential and cutting off of possibilities and come into the throne room with the pieces in your hand, lay them at my feet and see what happens when the Creator of the place waiting for you with stone roads in-laid with gold, can come and pick up those pieces and He can be the Master potter and place each piece of your mosaic, your tapestry exactly as He sees fit, what would happen if you allow Him to be the Master shaper of your destiny, we know Him to be.

Could it be that all that loss, all that heart ache, all that seeming destruction can in some way be placed as a pathway mosaic of stones for others to tread on that they too may be led to the feet of the Almighty, All-knowing, All-loving, All-kind, All-caring Master who knows the future and can lay bare and make barren those heartaches, take out the sting of the dismay, dis-illusionment, disabling-effect of the enemy’s plans and place instead, in their place, the pathways, the path-stones of destiny, the purpose and calling the Master knew to be there in the first place.

What if?

So, today, Father, as I have been fighting with you for over 10years now, I have finally decided after a long fight, that You are worthy of it all. I will willingly come to Your feet and lay down my rights.

I have the right to be angry over the abuse of neglect, mistrust, lies and deception the enemy has tried to put on my life through many role-players. Over the loss of the life I should’ve, could’ve, would’ve had, had my family not been pillaged.

I have the right to be angry over the sexual and moral abuses that have happened to me via the hands of many role-players, rape, hurt and plain abuse.

I have the right to these all, but today I lay them squarely at your feet, and say Father, these were mine, they’re now Yours, do with them what You will. I choose life.

I choose life from the throne room of grace, I choose life from the altar of the divine calling which You alone placed on my life. I choose life by denying any hold all, or any, of these things have had on me and no longer will have on me, as I am released in power, resurrection power by the blood of the Lamb, by the Almighty Creator who already ordained this day in history for me to be the woman of God He intended me to be. I decree I am FREE INDEED!! God today, I will take You by the word of Your promises which were always true, I regret to confess, I always struggled to believe them because of the broken places I came from, but my God, my God, my God, something has shifted in the heavenlies and I am believing You for this and the full destiny You have for me, today, in Jesus’ Mighty Name!

Like Steven, who had to look to Jesus to take his eyes off the natural to see his next, Father I am taking my eyes off of who I was to see who I am in You, who You have created me to be and, Lord, where You are taking me next. I pray that You would keep my eyes so focused that it would be as though the rest of me had gone to sleep, not seeing or hearing anyone else around me, to be solely focused on You.

Thank You, Almighty God

I love You and thank You that in the last 10years You have taught me that I can trust Your gentle, kind, gentlemanly process. You lead me, when I am able, to move forward, thank You for Your grace!

If this moved you to desire more from a God who frees us, please pray this prayer with me https://bit.ly/32FesCL finished already? Please let me know you prayed that prayer, I would love to contact you and send you some more encouraging information and places of worship where you can meet others whose lives are being forever changed and moved towards an eternity of life we can’t imagine, e-mail: chat at orderingmayhem.co.za

Jesus Mine Elect

Is 42:1 “Behold my servant, whom I uphold; Mine elect, in whom my soul delighteth; I have put my spirit upon Him; He shall bring forth judgment to the gentiles.”

Have we ever stopped to consider Jesus was God’s elect?

Jesus was chosen by God to be the world’s Saviour and in so doing was elected to demote His holy status, deny His Kingly power, right and Kingdom and die the most utterly humiliating , excruciating death, so that the people who denied Him ate the apple, ran away and worshipped false gods made by human hands, would have an everlasting opportunity to forgiveness, eternal life, the greatest gift of which is what we denied in the first place by eating the apple and worshipping false gods. Yet why did He, most holy Awe-inspiring God, agree to this, even though there was the distinct possibility for history to repeat itself?

He values, over all His creation, over all His heavenly counterparts, beside Himself, He values intimacy and personal, truth-filled relationship with us.

How much do we value the privilege of our relationship with Him, James said faith without action is dead, let’s put our actions into Jesus first, Mat 6:33.

Heb 11:6 “But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.”

In the presence of my King 11 August, 2019

In the presence of our King we are drawn up to His throne room of grace …

In the presence of our King we are called to a higher calling, called to our ultimate purpose …

In the presence of our King we are called into oneness with the vine to whom we are the branches …

This is how we stay as closely interwoven as the branch…is to the vine.

In the presence of our King all things of the world are drawn away from our hearts and minds …

In the presence of our King our focus solely on Him … Creator of us … the created beings. Knowing our flaws, knowing our weaknesses and temptations, how we fall into them by the desires of our own hearts, yet loving us unconditionally … perfectly … fully …

I don’t deserve this grace …

I don’t deserve His face …

His glory shining down on me … His perfection pouring favour over me … His Love, Love of perfection casting out every fear, every doubt … perfect Love … Loving at all times … especially when I don’t deserve it … He’s Loving me to wholeness.

In the presence of my King I become who my Creator created me to be …

In the presence of my King I become equipped to face the day boldly … as me …

In the presence of my King I become aware of His greatness and that in each of us is a uniqueness placed there by His Hand of Love …

In the presence of my King I become aware that my mistakes are mistakes, yet He empowers me by His Holy Spirit to overcome my downfalls, to be stronger than before, that when I fall my instinct is to call …

Call on the presence of my King …

Lean …

Lean on the presence of my King …

Those times of quiet intimacy in private … the strength of my daily walk in the light

Things I do in the dark, things I do in the night …

They become my strength …

What I do at night …

I use this to ignite …

My days with His holy fire …

His holy fire with the life-giving power of the word …

This may seem absurd …

Yet it is the equation He Himself displayed …

The example He gave when He walked the earth …

What He did in private ignited His public walk …

If the Master did and in His earthly being needed to …

Then how much more me and you????

In the presence of my King …

He reveals … everything …

His words promise of … I have supplied everything …

Everything you need for life and godliness …

In the presence of my King …

Can we really afford to wait …

Can we really wait until we hate …

Our very lives before we submit …

Before we surrender …

Can we really afford to wait, to follow His pure, simple, perfect example?


Can we commit …

Can we commit to a life of surrender, knowing He has all the answers anyway?

Can we really afford not to commit … allowing our lives to be taken up into His presence daily, where equipping, strengthening and understanding grace meet love and perfection …

Can we really afford to miss an opportunity with the One who created everything and can supply us … anything …

Can we afford to wonder about submission, commitment, time to fit it in … when the presence of our King … is at hand …

Will we allow it to slip away …

Will we allow time, the world, pressure, people to continue to be our excuses … or will we commit and obey and … here it is the modern-day word to hate … will we be prepared to submit … will we be prepared to submit our entire lives … our entire thought process … our emotional well-being to the one who created us … He made us … He gave us these desires … when we submit He adds no pressure … when we submit … He takes no joy … when we submit His hand is here to catch and carry us when mistakes are made … even the big ones that are potentially threatening … He catches us and carries us … by His grace … when we submit …

What are we willing to do …

What are we willing to sacrifice …

What are we willing to commit to …

In the scheme of eternity … what are we really asking … that we live our lives to the fullest purpose we are created for by our perfect Creator being, Daddy God … what are we waiting for people?

If 5 minutes, or 15 minutes or 30 minutes with our Creator God, heavenly Father, grace-delivering Holy Spirit, tender-loving Lord Jesus can bring us into right relationship with Him, where submission isn’t our present-day “S” word but a response our hearts take naturally in reaction to the perfect relationship with Him … and eternity, knowing those minutes would have put purpose, meaning, grace, and perfect direction into my life … and I consider eternity … where I meet Him face to face … officially … and He says either … why did you not draw near to me … I do not know you …

Or …

Well done my good and faithful servant … with little you accomplished much …

This is what I live for … my master’s acclaim … no other…

Will you join me?

Isaiah 45: 22-25

“Turn to me and be saved, all you ends of the earth; for I am God, and there is no other.

By myself have I sworn, my mouth has uttered in all integrity a word that will not be revoked:

‘Before me every knee will bow; by me every tongue will swear. They will say of me, ‘In the Lord alone are righteousness and strength.’”

All who have raged against Him will come to Him and be put to shame.

But in the Lord all the descendants of Israel will be found righteous and will exult.”

This is what I live for:

“At the name of the Lord every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.”