25th July, 2018 to New Year 2019


Recording of thoughts, memories and readings.

My hubby asked me what have I been studying in the word and I said I’ve been studying rebellion. Now this sounds like a heavy but I feel like the person who is swimming out beyond the breakers in the sea and the current is about to sweep me up. And the Lord is saying to me, “Come on, Come on, get away from the edge, get away from those breakers and swim back to me!” and I’m almost saying “I enjoy shark teeth more!” and fighting against everything the Lord’s saying and this is not where I want to be right now. Even in the same night after this realisation, the Lord had told me not to mention a specific thing He was working with me on and I decided to take it up at lifegroup, instead of being quiet, I still went and said it out loud at lifegroup and I should possibly not have said anything at all.

Still struggling with the attitude and heart attitude of rebellion, to change and do what the Lord says I should do and not to fight against the Lord.

My favourite song at the time was “Victory belongs to Jesus” by Todd Delaney and it starts with the words “Who can stand against the Lord? No one can” That’s effectively what I am trying to do by opposing Him, rebelling against Him, it’s pointless. Not wanting to do all He is calling me to, but at the same time, I should be, this would save me time, heartache and stress… submission. It’s a difficult subject for us at the moment in our culture of rebellion, rock n roll lifestyle and live life your way, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

This is a very dangerous place to be as we no longer submit to authority, pastors, husbands and even the Lord Himself.

Please Father God, help me to hear and obey, I desperately need you!

This I feel is an imperative reminder for me of something I wrote earlier in 2018 but I need to keep myself close to the heart of my Father in order to remain under (definition of submission:- remain under) Him! Him and His beautiful promises for me, Him and His beautiful plans for me, Him and His beautiful laws put there to keep me on track, to protect me, to bring me to a place where I live in His good, pleasing, perfect will to the best of my grace inspired abilities.

HAPPY NEW YEAR friends, be blessed and may God lead you and guide you into the fullness of what He has for you and your family in 2019!

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