Category Archives: Purpose

Your highest calling will be the hardest

This is a funny story. I felt like the Lord said I must take a break from writing, this isn’t unusual for me as the Lord often says stop xyz in order to do a bit of a heart recon. hehe!

Never fun these heart recon’s, especially for me, there’s always a sprinkle of vanity and a twinge of conviction that causes me to fall on my knees and ask Father for forgiveness for vanity, self-imposed haughtiness of the eyes, heart and mind… wow… I was in deep and were it not for my Saviour, I’d still be in that place. You see He promises to catch me where I fall, question I have to ask myself is, am I listening when He wants to be there to catch me… what, and to whom am I listening…

I found that I quickly get misdirected of the voices out there, this piece was great, what you wrote about the other day I don’t agree with… at times even the silence of the reader makes it hard to know what they think and feel about what I’m writing, the direction my devotions are taking etc..

Anyway, the Lord told me to wait from 15 August, 2020, till 15 September, 2020 for an answer to something else I wanted to do. The Lord said wait a month and I will answer you. I said ok, took a look at the calendar, it was the 15th August and I prayed very oddly in between about the circumstance and I heard nothing from the Lord regarding my question.

Today, in my quiet time I felt the Lord speak so clearly to me, I was very moved by His message and the fact that I’d heard so directly, where I’d felt the last few weeks were very quiet and I hadn’t heard anything so very directly from the Lord. Only later in the day, I would realise it was the 15th of September, and realise the significance of what the Lord had done!

He had said you will know the answer on 15 September, and here I was just having usual time with the Lord, not asking Him specifically about my query and He answered me.

What is my point and why am I mentioning this here? The Lord doesn’t answer us as and when we would like and within the parameters we set for Him. I should have known by now that the Lord would tell me when He felt it was the right time to answer, after all in our relationship I don’t wake up and tell the Lord, ok today I’ll fast for abc for x amount of time and y subject will be fasted. No.

I say, Lord, I feel led to fast today or this week etc, please let me know the hours and the things You want me to fast. Taking it from there, I find the Lord is much kinder to me than I am to myself.

Packing up the winter of your life!

Tonight, while packing up my kitchen, I was putting away all the cooking equipment you would use for cold winter days… while packing them in, I thought it feels like I’m packing up winter… then I felt the Lord saying, “You are, you are packing up the winter of your life. You are packing away the parts that have hurt you and all the time it took to renew and repair you and now is the time for you to start shining. Now is the time for you to take your stand in this world full of pain, hurt and disappointment, you are going to shine like a star. Not for the world, not for man’s approval and accolades, you are going to stand for Me, in Me, showing only Me off to the rest of the world.

Asnee, I am packing up the winter of your world, where you already had all the tragedies, traumas, assaults and abuses done to you before the age of 17, I have spent the last 24 years healing, repairing and restoring you. I have told you since you moved from Cape Town 10 years ago, that I am sending you here to reconnect with family, reconcile and I will teach and train you in order to send you out into the mission field.

The mission field is starting to look very different to what you would have expected it, had this lock down never changed it.

Jesus, my Saviour! 2005

In the same way I was transported to the heavenlies in my previous vision, while we lived in Cape Town, in another home, I was praising and worshipping God and while singing about wanting to see His face. All of a sudden, completely out of the blue there before my eyes was the Saviour! He stood immediately in front of me, it felt as if I would lift my hand and touch His face… with His eyes burning like fire, His hair beautiful and shoulder length brown with a slight wave and His face the most majestic I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing; and that was the thing, I knew Him, it wasn’t that I had just seen Him, I already knew Him, even though it was the first time I laid eyes on Him, I knew Him intimately and He looked at me so tenderly, lovingly and full of kindness and mercy… Once again, I felt unworthy and that the Lord was wanting to tell me something but I never trusted myself to ask Him what, as I felt I wasn’t worthy of His visitation and unsure of the reason, so I never mentioned it again, until in 2016 the Lord had “Uncle Angus” read it out aloud over the radio. If you look it up today, you should be able to find it on the internet and listen to the beautiful description of “The Man from Galilee” as read by Angus Buchan. It’s an atheist who lived in Jesus’ day and wrote this description, better than I can, but caused me to pull off the road in tears of repentance as I realised I had been running away from the Lord, as He had visited me and I had been in disbelief. I repented and it renewed my estranged relationship with the Lord, I wasn’t mad, He was actually revealing Himself and all these other visions to me.

What does He want from me, how will this benefit those around me, I’m still asking, but at least I no longer run away from God, I have learnt to trust Him, draw near and run with what He is showing me and where He leads me.

Let’s take a retro look

Tonight, as our dear President, his excellency, Mr. Ramaphosa, gave his announcement I felt great empathy for him. Visible tolls of the decision-making processes, planning and true deliberation of a good man on behalf of his countrymen. I can do little by saying thank you, Sir, and yet I would be remiss if I didn’t. Thank you, Sir.

Thank you for taking up the challenge when brought out at this time of crisis to stand strong for our nation, your nation, God’s people.

As I stood in my kitchen contemplating my little family. My mind was taken back to 2008, the big world wide economic crash. My hubby and I were newly weds, moved to Cape Town and it had taken me 3 years to finally find a permanent job in this new province. Everything went well, we went on our Christmas holiday in 2007 and came back expecting a fantastic year, I was calling in January to find out about deep sea diving courses we were going to take.

In June I became strangely ill, my doc decided it was food poisoning, but the nurses at our office knew better, first hand experience told them I was pregnant, took the test and voila! A baby girl… 5 months in, crisis hit the medical aid industry and everyone said they can never put you under retrenchment, you’re pregnant… turns out none of us had ever heard of LIFO (Last In First Out) policy of HR. Well, that was us, newly married, brand new job, finally pregnant, we had been trying for years and voila…retrenchment.

Many people asked how we would survive this unprecedented time in history with all the economies of the world crashing around us. We said, God will provide… On the day I spent cleaning out my baby girls room, painting it and marvelling at the generosity of God’s people… I looked around the room so overwhelmed… we had received everything in triplicate, from prams to cots to clothing and car chairs. Here we were, new business in the dining room, baby girl in the spare room and everything we could ever need provided by our heavenly Father.

So, if like me, tonight the announcement of an extended lock down had you in a momentary panic, look back and remember where God has brought you from.

Much love,

Asnee – Ordering Mayhem

Promise for South Africa 13 March, 2020

This morning while in quiet time, I feel the Lord gave me another word for South Africa.

While praying I felt the Lord say read Isaiah 33, which I did and this beautiful picture came out of it:

Is 33

a)‘Woe to you, destroyer, you who have not been destroyed!

Woe to you, betrayer, you who have not been betrayed!

When you stop destroying, you will be destroyed;

When you stop betraying, you will be betrayed.

b)Lord, be gracious to us; we long for You. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress. At the uproar of Your army, the peoples flee; when You rise up, the nations scatter. c) Your plunder, O nations, is harvested as by young locusts; like a swarm of locusts people pounce on it.

d)The Lord is exalted, for He dwells on high; He will fill Zion with His justice and righteousness. He will be the sure foundation for your times, a rich store of salvation and wisdom and knowledge; the fear of the Lord is the key to this treasure.

e)Look, their brave men cry aloud in the streets; the envoys of peace weep bitterly. The highways are deserted and no travellers are on the raods. The treaty is broken, its witnesses are despised, no one is respected. The land dries up and wastes away, Lebanon is ashamed and withers; Sharon is like the Arabah, the Bashan and Carmel drop their leaves.

f)“Now will I arise,” says the Lord.

“Now will I be exalted; now will I be lifted up. You conceive chaff, you give birth to straw; your breath is a fire that consumes you. The peoples will be burned to ashes; like cut thornbushes they will be set ablaze.”

“You who are far away, hear what I have done; you who are near, acknowledge my power! The sinners in Zion are terrified; trembling grips the godless: “Who of us can dwell with the consuming fire? Who can dwell with everlasting burning?” Those who walk righteously and speak what is right, who reject gain from extortion and keep their hands form accepting bribes, who stop their ears against the plots of murder and shut their eyes against contemplating evil- they are the ones who will dwell on the heights, whose refuge will be the mountain fortress. Their bread will be supplied, and water will not fail them.

Your eyes will see the king in His beauty and view a land that stretches afar. In your thoughts you will ponder the former terror: “Where is that chief officer? Where is the one who took the revenue? Where is the officer in charge of the towers?” You will see those arrogant people no more, people whose speech is obscure, whose language is strange and incomprehensible.

Look on Zion, the city of your festivals: your eyes will see Jerusalem, a peaceful abode, a tent that will not be moved; its stakes will never be pulled up, nor any of its ropes broken. There the Lord will be our Mighty One. It will be like a place of broad rivers and streams. No galley with oars will ride them, no mighty ship will sail them. For the Lord is our judge, the Lord is our lawgiver, the Lord is our King; it is He who will save us.

Your rigging hangs loose: The mast is not held secure, the sail is not spread. Then an abundance of spoils will be divided and even the lame will carry off plunder. No one living in Zion will say, “I am ill”; and the sins of those who dwell there will be forgiven.”

What the Lord showed me regarding Isaiah 33 and similarities with South Africa.

While I can see this is a picture of what heaven is and will be when we arrive there, the Lord spoke to me this morning and told me that this is a picture of the ‘salvation of South Africa’ now. South Africa will be a ‘type’ of heaven for people to look to and see this is how it is when the Lords people dwell together in harmony.

The Lord has been telling me for a few years now, that, while people are almost ‘fleeing’ South Africa now, as in my previous vision from the Lord that is in line with His plan of spreading the gospel across the globe that those people are, literally, ‘a planting of the Lord,’ giving the world a picture of what the family as God designed it should be and thereby spreading the gospel. The Lord has been saying that as much as people are now ‘fleeing’ South Africa, in a few years’ time they will be returning for the ‘safe haven’ South Africa can offer them. The Lord said to me, that the way the world uses Switzerland for a ‘safe haven’ of their finances, they will be using South Africa as a ‘safe haven’ of their lives, families and all that they hold dear.

Is 33 – describes beautifully how when the Lord restores, He is the one who restores completely and entirely that we would not need or want to add anything to what He has and is doing in His plans for us as His people or His land. Praise God!

a)When we were interceding for the last elections the Lord had me in hysterical laughter and was showing me how He was pulling the people in, what they thought were seats of power out of their seats. Another lady that night said that they would fall and even by death, some would fall. There was a spate of deaths in the parliament and local governments the following year. But, as it says in  Is 33, ‘The destroyer and betrayer will be destroyed and betrayed.’

b)While the Lord’s people are calling to Him to be their strength and their rock. Acknowledging that when the Lord decides and sends His army, the nations will flee!

c)We God’s people, will be the people, pouncing on the harvest, like locusts, sweeping our sickels for the ripe harvest, not allowing one to fall through the cracks, but sweeping every kindling flame, each is important to our Father, therefore each one is worth dying for in our hearts!

d) The Lord, our Rock and our salvation, will be the one to establish the peoples in righteousness and justice.

e)A picture of what the rest of the world will look like at this time, which is why people will be fleeing.

f)The promises of the Lord for the country that allows Him to establish His justice and righteousness for it’s people.

Amen, let it be, Lord!