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Jesus on His chariot 6 March 2020

Tonight, while worshipping, the Lord showed me a picture of Him on a chariot with horses’ reigns in His hand, the horses were all the elements of the universe, the four corners of the world, they were all harnessed to the chariot. Jesus was riding the chariot and having a ball, throwing out lightning and thunder as He travelled across the wings of the wind, traversing the globe, sitting on the circle of the earth, throwing out these lightning bolts with thunder and wherever they hit, there His people would be grabbing that lightning and thunder and sending it onto the souls around them, throwing out, as quickly as they could, but even so, it wasn’t fast enough, for the lightning bolts and thunder from the Lord were coming down faster than the people could pass them out.

As the Lord’s people were throwing out the lightning bolts and thunderous words, they weren’t shouting, but the words moved the earth in people’s hearts as it was straight from the mouth of God, as they were passing out the bolts and thunder that came from the mouth and hand of God, so were the seeds planted, as it was planted almost immediately it was also reaped. God is saying, the harvest is ripe, who will go for Him, who will go with Him, He is traversing the earth, no longer sitting on the circle of the earth but currently riding the clouds with His chariots, harnessing the ends of the earth, the elements of the world, the universe, to accomplish His work. Will you go with Him, will you go for Him, this is the question, where will you be in His traversing? Will you traverse with Him, will you stay out and have nothing to do with it, as it says in Isaiah 63 ‘I’ve been treading the winepress alone. No one was there to help.’ So, the Lord is saying about the harvest, Mat 9:37 ‘the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few.’ Will you leave Him to do this work alone, because He can, but, if we will allow Him to work with, through, and in us, He will accomplish much, and the rewards are great, we will see Father move heaven and earth if we say ‘Send me, I will go for you, God make me Your hands and feet,’ Father will have His way, where will you be, where will I be, what will we choose, Father has His way, whether the people will move with Him or not, but if we do, He alone will be the strength beneath our wings. He has promised us supernatural power, strength, divine wisdom, insight and supernatural divine wisdom and discernment of spirits of life and death and He will be glorified, He will be exalted high above all other names that at the name of Jesus every knee will bow and every tongue confess, ‘Jesus Christ is Lord’ His banner over me is love, He would have me spread His banner over the world far and wide, if I will allow Him to use me.

If we will believe that His holy Spirit came on that day of Pentecost like a gale force wind… can we fathom it… no, in South Africa we have never had that gale force wind, let’s pray we don’t have to have it before we will listen and hear and go for Him. If we could understand that that gale force wind shook the building to nearly blowing over the walls, shook, the ground beneath them… shook… when the Holy Spirit came, are we expecting this move of God, where He will shake the ground beneath us, He will shake all we know as solid and give us a new understanding of what it means for God to move, for God to be the immovable, moving mountains into the sea, Oh God make us see! We look at buildings, temples (churches and even ourselves, our bodies), mountains as unshakable, but I pray for the day God makes us know… His unshakable… unlike anything this world knows or can see. When we believe that His Holy Spirit came in that Holy fire and shook that building to nearly collapsing, ‘no one could tell where it came from’ and then broke the ‘wild fire’ (Acts 2, the Message) into parts and came to rest on the people, from there they began speaking in tongues in different languages.

Picture this, the entire building is nearly blown over with the 120 disciples inside it, by a gale force wind, these are not silent. Then what looks like a wildfire appears from nowhere and rests on each person and they come out of the building speaking languages they’ve never spoken before. This could hit the local news instantly! Can we believe the Lord for a move like this?

He is working, He is on His chariot, moving cracking lightning and thunder bolts from the heavenlies to the earth enabling us to harvest as we live and move and have our being in Him. ‘Every seed is important, every seed is necessary, don’t miss an opportunity,’ says the Lord, ‘take every moment you can to plant, I will harvest, keep planting, I am harvesting faster than you can imagine, faster than the lightning bolts that I am sending from the heavenlies, I am harvesting, keep sowing, keep reaping, keep harvesting I am working,’ says the Lord, ‘believe me, I will do a great work in the world through this generation of South Africans, if you will only believe. The devil has no say, never mind who has the last say, I am always in control and I will always fulfil my word. My word over South Africa has always been life and Godliness to be spread from here throughout the world, throughout the nations, spread by South Africans through South Africans, bringing the rest of the world back in line, back on track to the family values, family statutes of my word that South Africans, knowingly or unknowingly carry with them in their DNA, I have kept them as a people, hidden in my ways that they may not be corrupted by the world, that they would carry the light of my Kingdom to the rest of the world, and even though they don’t see or know it now, that is why they, South African families have been scattered abroad to share and bring the gospel to the people around them through the loving, caring environment of the family structure.’

Now there will be a backlash, there will be a fight for the family structure, especially in South Africa, that is only natural, the devil always tries to silence the messenger before he can effectively bring the message of the Living God to His people and those around him, but Rom 8:28  ‘and we know that for those who love God all things work together for good.’ Hold on South Africa, hold fast to all I have given you in my word, fight South Africa, with all you have, for the family structure, this is the one place in the world where the sanctity of marriage and family can be seen undestroyed by the enemy and his plan he sees as cunning. He knows nothing of the strategy I, the Living God, have had from the beginning of time, and the very plan the enemy had to silence, destroy and kill this people of strength, of courage and of character that I have raised up in South Africa, is the self-same strategy I have orchestrated to send and separate my people throughout the world, scattering them like nothing before in order to send out, strategically place them, strategically spread them into the world… my silent army. Oh my silent army, you don’t even know who you are, you don’t even know that you have been planted with the strategy of the King of kings on your heart in order to bring my peace, bring my reconciliation of families, family structure, family strength in loving-kindness, in loving-territories back to me like no other weapon can bring in place. The family is my secret weapon to bring society back to it’s feet from having fallen into the mire and destruction the enemy tries to kill, steal and destroy all that I have placed in society, but you, South Africa are placed in such a way that you will silently bring back to me those who have gone astray, into the ways of the world they didn’t know to be traps, I will bring them back with the love they find in all your homes. South Africa, go out amongst those around you, bring the South African culture back to families… relaxing in each others homes where we pick up on culture, nuances and how to love one another as I have taught you from the beginning of time. Bring the world back to it’s knees, remember, when South Africa announced a 1 million strong prayer meeting, no one asked ‘to which god will they pray?’ remember that, there is only one God, the world already knew and knows the God of South Africa is the one true God, they need us to show it to them by our loving testimony. Go forth and multiply in a new way. Stay close to me, I will lead, guide and empower you, mostly when led by Holy Spirit, I will be the one multiplying your efforts and reaping the harvest, keep sowing, I will reap… the time is now! It is Time! the time is now, It Is Time! the time is now, It Is Time! Go South Africa, Go!! Go for Me, go with Me, go in the strength of your heavenly Father! Go, where I will send you, go when I will send you, go without questioning, go without looking back, go without spare sandals, go without a purse, go in my strength, go in my Spirit, I will send you where no one will know where you came from or where you are going, I will send you, will you go for Me? Will you go with Me? South Africa this is your destiny, you were raised up, tried and tested for such a time as this, will you go with Me? The devil tried to kill you for this destiny, will you stand in the face of this destiny, this trial and testing is over, South Africa, will you stand and say, I was raised up for such a time as this?
South Africa, rise and shine for your light has come and the glory of the Lord will shine upon you (Isaiah 60:1)  if you will allow Me, I will go with you, I will go before you, I will go in you, in power in strength you have never encountered before, by the power of the Holy Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead, I will go before you, by the very breath that spoke life into being I will cast out the demons, I will clear the battle ground before you get there, I will be the trap set before the enemy, the enemy will run into it and you will come in behind the souls that felt trapped by the enemy, and you will be the ones to pick up the pieces and catch the harvest for the Kingdom, reaping the harvest where the enemy thought he had a stronghold, you, South Africa, you will be the ones to harvest, you will be picking that harvest and saving the souls for eternity, that they will not be lost, I will not loose one of these that I have apportioned for my Kingdom, they will each be known by Me and be brought to Me before the end of time, says the Lord Almighty! There is none that will snatch them away from Me, or out of My holy hand, says the Lord God Almighty, the One Living, true God.

Forgiveness Part (2)

14th Wedding Anniversary!

So this year, with the testimony and privilege of celebrating my 14th wedding anniversary, I can safely say that I’ve been on the track of wholeheartedly serving the Lord for approximately 15years now. This having been said, I heard the Lord say to me this morning that I’ve been so broken and full of hurt, pain and unforgiveness that I was not even aware of, that I have been incapable of fully receiving His Love.

This statement completely flawed me, as I have on many occassions been slain in the absolute Love of our generous Father, but with the Lord showing me through 3 different friends and relatives that I have unforgiveness that needs to be dealt with, I spent time with Him on this issue, fasting and praying and He has been at work again!

The way I fast and pray, which works for me(after a bit of trial and error, over a few years) this is not strictly following a certain biblical way of fasting, but I feel more a relational way…

My 5 steps to fasting relationally…

  1. I ask the Lord what to fast about, in this instance, the fasting topic was brought to my attention first, most of the time my fasting has been as a response to what the Lord has shown me needs attention. There are other times I fast, for instance, on a weekly basis for my family which is a certain day and time weekly, when I ask the Lord what to fast about this week and He responds to me and tells me the topic of this week’s fast for that set time.
  2. Once I know the topic, I ask the Lord how long to fast for? Is it a day, an hour, a week, but the Lord is gracious and generous. I used to be able to do 30day fasts when you only eat something small in the evening after sunset etc, but, now that I have a whole family to look after I can’t seem to manage those fasts and be a blessing to my family, while not eating… go figure!
  3. I ask the Lord what to fast, or what type of fast to have? Certain things in my menu have been important to me at certain times of my life. At this stage of my life I’ve given up my evening cuppa along with meat for 3weeks… this takes it’s toll, not really recommended unless you see your doc first especially for ladies! When I was younger T.V. played a major role of 2 or so hours in my life and I would give that up to fast and pray at that time.
  4. I don’t know if it’s considered theologically correct, or not, but, then I start to pray, just in tongues, ask God to open my eyes to see what He sees in the situation and what to pray for and how. Then I continue my days as usual, I fast at the times I would have had the coffee or meat I say to the Lord, ‘Lord, God, I am fasting and giving this up to you and praying as we discussed , please would You release this to me or free this one from that or whatever the request is.
  5. As with all things the Lord is faithful in all He does! He reveals and answers  the prayers as we ask Him and trust Him. There are times, as with this time of fasting for unforgiveness for me, that it is necessary to ask someone in a position of leadership, revelation or having experience in the same area to pray with you through, for, or into breakthrough for that issue. Trust the Lord to show you the right person for that, don’t just take the first person that comes to mind, you could get hurt, wait on Him.

Then anytime you’re alone get into the Presence of God, housework is my most dangerous time. I spend hours worshipping, crying, singing, dancing and breakthrough comes in the most magnificent manner…

All Glory to God as He does His infamous open-heart surgery without even needing to delve into the details, He works, He removes, He re-inserts His Love, His beliefs of how He sees us, made us and what He has for us; His paradigms for us to be whole, as He intended us to be, healed and returned to Him to accomplish His dreams He placed within us since the beginning of time to establish all He called us to!

Thank You Lord, in Jesus Mighty Name have Your way in our lives!

Let me know if this has helped you or some tips on how you fast, love to hear from you!

God bless, love

As

Forgiveness Part (1)

As I lay all at Your feet I hear You say, is the cross enough? Is the suffering I endured enough to take away what you have endured? Is it enough that I broke eternal perfection to bring down one of the perfection of the Godhead, to be entirely man and entirely God, with no sin in Him so that you, each and everyone of you, will have an advocate and friend seated in Heavenly places? So that when you hit rock bottom of whatever place mentally, physically, spiritually you find yourself in today, you will know without that shadow of doubt I am here, with you in this place you are never alone. I am there, standing beside my Father, calling out for you, calling out to you, saying you can do this, we can get there, I have also been there, that is how I know you and me together we can lift this cross, carry this burden and set you free, because I already carried you there 2019years ago! Is it enough that I walked the earth during some of the most difficult times to empathise with your needs, temptations and desires? Is it enough that I lived, was born and died an adopted Son of a carpenter?

But what am I to you? Who do you say I am? Am I, or do you know me, as a friend, closer than a brother or lover? Do you know me as a wonderful counsellor? Do you know me as your heavenly Father? Do you know me as God the only Potentate and what does that mean for you?

I can tell you who I know Him to be, if you’re interested? My experience of Father God, Holy Spirit and tender-loving Jesus Christ.

I know Him as my Father, so intricately woven into the very fabric of my being He has done open-heart surgery to my heart, removing, cleaning out hurt, damage and self-destruction I never even knew was there but His hand, more gentle and tender than any surgeon could ever mustre.

I know Him as my Father who loves me so much He keeps me safe in my darkest moments, whether of the mind or decisions that  could have been detrimental. He has kept my head and life above water on many occassions, at times when I was far from Him I can see, as I look back, His Almighty hand carrying me through, often in potential physical harm too!

I know Him, since I was 8years old, as my Comforter, Counsellor and gentle, tender Holy Spirit who has led me faithfully my entire life, even when I was far from Him, again. Him, He has always been my safety net. I can truly say Thank You Lord and Thank You for giving me praying parents who loved and appreciated me their best.

I know Him since I was born as God the Only Potentate. My mother thought she wasn’t able to have more children since she had my sister and miraculously I was born. I was born prematurely and at a very vulnerable age went home in the Zimbabwean heat of 45°C, contracted pneumonia. After days and weeks being ill my mother thought I was breathing better that’s why I had quietened down. As usual one of my favourite sayings… but God… but God knew I wasn’t and sent my dear pastor out to get something from the shop and as he passed our house the Lord said to him in Afrikaans(cause the Lord speaks all languages fluently… even though we all secretly think He speaks only ours and translates for others, come on now, we all know we do…) ‘Ietsie’s vout daar binne.'(‘Somethings wrong in there’). He came into our house, knowing my parents like son and daughter, he picked me up and said I was already blue… Now I spent my whole life trying to reconcile this story, until one day at the age of 15 Oupa Dup(as we affectionately called him) came and told me himself. That’s when I believed it for the first time. I saw that for him it was a miracle he also was in awe of the Lord for. He picked me up, and prayed, the rest is history. I’ve had many other miracles but that one always seals it for me. I knew Him at birth, intimately!

I know Him as a counsellor who moves gently, aptly across paths of lives and hearts directing people who think they have nothing to do with Him, but somewhere, a parent, friend, counsellor and often even a teacher; is praying for them and He, Almighty God, has the last word, saving people young and old from self-destructive behaviour towards His eternal life-giving relationship!

I know Him as a Father, who, when we as a couple were faced with the possibility of abortion, said absolutely not and we live the beautiful result of a full family today. Also a Father who loves, heals and restores the hearts and souls who, for whatever reason, absolutely not was not an option and abortion became a part of their story… but God has a better plan, how? Only He can say, but He always has a restoration plan in place, that’s how much He loves us…

John 3:16 ‘For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.’ NIV

Whom shall I fear? Part (2)

In follow up with my first post on the fear of man, I have been praying this for myself, not sure if it would be helpful to anyone else, hope it is. Let me know what fears you are struggling with?

I have written a prayer, in red, under the Psalms words to pray through the lines above it.

Psalm 27

The Lord is my light and my salvation—
    whom shall I fear?                                                                                                      Lord, God I lift my eyes to You my light and my salvation, may I fear You alone, please Father.

The Lord is the stronghold of my life—
    of whom shall I be afraid?                                                                                               Lord, God remind me when I am afraid that You are my stronghold, my safe tower and my refuge, remind me to run to You with my fears and desires, please?

When the wicked advance against me
    to devoura] me,
it is my enemies and my foes
    who will stumble and fall.                                                                                         Lord, God, help me to allow my heart to be anchored by You alone, to not see friends as enemies and trust You Almighty God to slay the fears that try to control my mind as I bring all my thoughts, plans, emotions, memories and daily life to You in submission and I trust You to cause them and the repitition of them to stumble and fall!
Though an army besiege me,
    my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
    even then I will be confident.                                                                                   Father, God, when I looked up and saw the tower that this fear of man has made infront of me and the fact that it almost comes between you and me because I allow it to stop me doing what You have called me to, God I pray please forgive me. Please help me to stop allowing these fears to keep me from You and all You have called me to, help me to not allow daily incidences to feel like a besiegement and to know that You will not allow war to break out against me because my heart is anchored in you!        

One thing I ask from the Lord,
    this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
    all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
    and to seek him in his temple.
For in the day of trouble
    he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
    and set me high upon a rock.                                                                             Father, God, may I keep my eyes on You and You alone, may I ever consider the day we meet and treasure it in my heart. Remind me of that day when I am faced with the choice again of giving in to the feeble lie of fear and following Your eternal plan for my life, that I am Yours and we will sit together and laugh at the day You overcame my fears with me, for me, through me, bringing me into eternal bliss from my earthly mayhem. May I know that You alone are enough, I need no other foundation, no other rock to build on and no other confirmation of who or whose I am, please God, my Lord.

Then my head will be exalted
    above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
    I will sing and make music to the Lord.                                                             Lord, God, Almighty,  my friend, my beloved, the Lover of my soul, how can I ever thank You enough, how can I ever pour my life out to You enough for You have given me this life. Before You I was nothing, before You I was lost, before You I was broken, sinful and ashamed but with You, in You, through You I am redeemed, loved, set free and eternally, perfectly Loved, how can I not rejoice, thank You God Almighty

Hear my voice when I call, Lord;
    be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
    Your face, Lord, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me,
    do not turn your servant away in anger;
    you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
    God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
    the Lord will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, Lord;
    lead me in a straight path
    because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
    for false witnesses rise up against me,
    spouting malicious accusations.

13 I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord                                                                                                        

Whom shall I fear? Part (1)

8th of January

Having had a long, curly, full head of hair, I decided to make a change and told the hair dresser to do whatever he feels suits my face and closed my eyes and watched…. well… watched…. closed my eyes initially, but then when his razor got stuck because there was too much hair…. (this should have been my cue to quit) I did open my eyes and saw that my hair was falling… ughem… rather rapidly to the floor.

Now with a week of a very short, mostly manly haircut, I have been thinking about what makes me a woman, because, I don’t wear make up anymore, I don’t wear hair anymore and in essence what makes me a woman if I’m not doning the things the woman is expected by this society to don, what is being a lady if it’s not putting on your make up, doing your hair, when all of those things are out of the way what is being a woman and looking feminine in your Godly purpose/role that you were born for? This was my initial thought. Guess I’ll have to think long n hard about this.

My next thought was why is this bothering me so much? When I shut myself in the room and prayed about it I finally realised I have a huge issue about this and asked the Lord to reveal to me what the actual heart issue was and why I felt so strongly about my hair. You have probably guessed it, but I wasn’t completely shocked, when the Lord showed me the huge burden over my head is the fear of man. Well, now I’ve got my work cut out for me, how am I going to solve this one? I guess the same way I heard about it, on my knees.

Issues of rejection, neglect and abuse have left their mark on my mind, heart and soul, but the perfect Lover and Father of my soul will reveal and heal all as He has up until now.

Trust you have similar testimonies of love and healing experiences and would love to pray with you and hear how you overcome these issues, send me a note to chat @ orderingmayhem co za.

Read Whom shall I fear? Part (2) here…